on online dating and marriage...

today marks our fourth month of being a couple. but it seems that we have known each other far longer than that.

the cartoon above is one of my favorites. just shows my apprehensions about online dating. sometimes i've grown used to our method of communication that when we do get the chance to talk on the phone, i'm occasionally stumped, left with nothing but blank thoughts. it's hard to explain but how can you fill in the gaps of conversation like the "lol" and "hehe" in basic chatting?

even if we do get to chat every night, it's a sacrifice in a way not to be able to talk the regular manner. but then again, nothing in this world is ever perfect, right? so we settle with what works for now.

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shocking news! a friend of mine announced of her bf's and her plans of getting married soon. i will keep my friend's name in complete anonymity for now as i promised not to tell anyone yet. too late! i'm posting this one on my blog! hehe...

anyways, we weren't really expecting that they decide so soon. i think they're planning to get hitched earlier than me. first question i asked her, "ano bang pinakain sa yo ng bf mo?" hehe! bad friend noh? :P but hey, just a few months ago she was in a dilemma because her bf was already pressuring her to tie the knot and she just wasn't quite ready yet. that's what she told me then.

well, things change. and i suppose she's come to her senses now and she's more sure of herself. i saw that this afternoon, after playing devil's advocate, just to check if she was already firm with her decision. seems like it!

i guess it just hits you when you decide to marry the person you so love. my friend janet asked me earlier how to tell if a person is ready to settle down. in my case, there is this feeling of security that i felt that joseph can only give me. security in all aspects -- emotionally, spiritually, financially, physically. with that, i feel i am assured of a more blissful married life. there is a strong conviction for us to want to be together for the rest of our lives. that, i think, says it all. once you've decided, that's it. end of story.

now i miss my sweetie. in just a week's time, i'll be able to see him and touch him again. i am soooo looking forward to nothing else but that. it'll be our first christmas and new year together. =)